This weekend I took a break from the overwhelming, mind boggling thing that is infertility. I pretended I wasn’t trying to have a baby. I acted like I was living my life the way I did 4 years ago before having a baby took over my mind, body and soul. I took a break from blogging and checking babycenter and twitter. It was refreshing. I feel like a new person today.
I spent Friday afternoon being inspired artistically. I had some new ideas for my photography and they turned out absolutely amazing. I really wish I could share here but it would totally give away my anonymity. I have also came up with a few other ideas, so I am glad my creativity is back after taking a long hiatus.
Saturday was kind of a wash. I picked up the house and babysat my nephew in the afternoon. Then I had a dreaded kids birthday party luckily with only one pregnant women in the room. Though I was the only person there that wasn’t either with child or already had children I think I handled it pretty well. No tears were shed over my sadness. I thank God for giving my strength to get through that especially after I had a little breakdown last week because of a friends pregnancy announcement. I love this quote from the Huffington Post and I think it describes the feelings perfectly. “I want people to know that every pregnancy announcement is devastating. Not because you are not happy for them, but because you’re sad for you” I know it is hard to understand for people on the outside, it is even harder to understand for people feeling it.
Finally Sunday I was able to work in the yard. I got my annual flowers bought and most of them put into my planters. I also got my workout in by moving rocks from one of our pastures to my new flower beds out front. My shoulders are still sore today and I don’t even have all the rocks I need. I got a little sun on my face and the puppy was very happy to spend all of her time outside.
It was such a productive weekend and I hope I can keep this positive energy going through the week. Some days will be harder then others but I know I can pull through. I know you can pull through too.
